and do help yourself. Anywayss...Sezairi's band Juxtapose did a cover of lucky and butterfly....BUTTERFLY!!! Cant imagine if he did a cover of You and I both.
It might just be too much for me. hahaha.
(Hmm...when will I ever get to see Jason Mraz live again...)
And speaking of Jason Mraz, Hilmi got me the live on earth CD/DVD. So...thank you Hilly!!! I still havent got down to watch the DVD though. Haha. Soon. Soon.
As soon as Sezairi Sezali wins the Idol title.
Hahahaha!
ok, this is such a random post.
A rather redundant one....
and while im at it....
VOTE FOR SEZAIRI SEZALI FOR THE NEXT SINGAPORE IDOL!
Entry title: I took a seat at the gratitude cafe
Date / Time : Saturday, November 07, 2009 / 11:58 PM
Take a look at today's Straits Times (Saturday, 7th November 2009) in the 'World' section, page C7. There you feast your eyes on a whole list of names. Names listed under the MDIS-University of Bradford 15th graduation ceremony 2009. And if you look closely under the Bachelor of Science in Biomedical Sciences, the 9th row...you'll see a very familiar name.
Yess!!! I have FINALLY graduated! After a tedious and strenuous 2 and a half years, im finally reaping what I've sowed. And as the secretary general of MDIS said in his address, education is never an easy journey. There are no short cuts and often sacrifices are made. Often these sacrifices are unseen. I second him. Indeed as mention in my previous post, lots of sacrifices are made. Time with family, friends and even myself are limited. Reports, presentations, revisions, assignments and lectures filled up our days, nights, weekends and even on special occasion and holidays.
But today, being a part of MDIS-UOB largest graduating batch, I finally saw where all my hard work and sacrifices lead me to. It was indeed the sweet taste of victory and achievement that I tasted in my mouth. And even sweeter to have it celebrated with my friends and family. And as the address by the MDIS secretary general continues, I applaud him with tears briming my eyes. He made all of us, the graduants to stand up and face our love ones, our pillar of support and to give them our heartiest and heartfelt applause. Indeed, what my parents have given me is something I cant repay. All of their love and belief in me helped me through. When I felt like giving up, they're the ones who encouraged me, pushing me, supporting me and most importantly praying for me. They prayed for me to be strong, to never loose belief in myself and to just pray the best for me. And that is what the secretary general refers to as the 'divine intervention', as one of the factors other than our hard work and sacrifices that brought us where we are today.
I have to say, the address by the MDIS secretary general was inspiring and one of the better 'speeches' I've heard. In fact I find the whole ceremony inspiring and uplifting. Suprising for me as I've been pretty much dissapointed with the sevices rendered by MDIS. Who wouldnt be if they messed up with the release of the dissertation title that costs us 3 months and was FORCED to convert from being a part time student to a full time student just so that I could be able to graduate by this year. When MDIS had initially promised me, as a part time student that I would be able to graduate by this year. Dont understand?? Well, its kinda complicated.
But let bygones be bygones. Its all over now. Ive earned my BSc and that's all that matters. And it was worth it. All the late night mugging, all the break-outs and breakdowns, all the heart break and love lost, and all the sacrifices was all worth it. That look that I saw on my parents face when I got my cert in hand and gown fully donned on, was simply priceless and worth it all.
To basically summarize all this clatter, 7th November 2009 marks the official day of the next step in my life. Its time for me to move forward to greener pastures. Though sacrifices are made, friendships are formed and with the certificate in my hand, I walk on with no regrets, just joy and a sense of gratification. All thanks to Allah for making all these possible. For His blessings and guidance. Alhamdullilah. And it was also possible through the love and support of my family and friends. Thank you so so much for everything.
Yours truly, sweethani
" I keep my life on a heavy rotation Requesting that it's lifting you up, up, up and away And over to a table at the Gratitude Cafe
I'm gonna make it mine Yes I, I'll own it I'm gonna make it mine Yes I'll make it all mine And I am finally there...its all mine. "
Entry title: Here I am today...
Date / Time : Monday, November 02, 2009 / 9:37 PM
Its funny how we can be on a high one moment and next you can be down in a puddle. That's life I guess, it takes you on a roller coaster ride. And with life, you just have to go along with the ride. No matter where it takes you, high or low or stagnant...go along for the ride. As they say its not the destination that matters, its the journey. Its how you handle every situation. Life is pretty much tough.
In the past 2 and a half year my life has pretty much been hectic. I pushed myself to the limit I never thought I would be in. Sacrifices are made, lessons learnt, love lost, broken hearts, knowledged gained, spirits broken and friendships formed. Juggling studies and work is much harder than I had thought it would be. And its not just studies and work that got affected, but friendship and relationships were put to the test too. I could no longer be around as much as I used too. And that made me really sad. But just like broken hearts, there is nothing that could not be fixed. I would say I have no regrets.
And why would I have regrets when this journey that I took gained me some of the most wonderful friends I could ever asks for. And I thank Allah for presenting them to me. They were the ones who helped me through those 2.5 years in that miserable school and make school much more fun and memorable. From the first introduction of, "Hi, name sape?" (Hi, what's your name?), I didnt know than that it would be the start of a great friendship. Im lucky to have always been blessed with the most wonderful people. All the memories and all the silly stuff we did is something I will always carry with me. And the best thing is that we dont just fool around, we studied together, encouraged each other and always helping each other out. Without them I seriously dont think I would be where I am today.
And where I am today is...a happy fresh graduate. Well, at least not till Saturday. It feels surreal that im finally wearing that gown that I've been envying as I look at my other siblings doning them on years ago. This year, Im finally gonna have that chance. Its hard to think that almost 3 years had past. Now that this phase is over, im gonna have to figure out what im gonna take on next. And I predict that its not gonna easy as well. But however the journey will be, I plan to take it in my stride. InsyaAllah.
Right now there is just one more thing that I need to do. And that is to break down that wall that I had build in the recent years. And it shocked me when I realised that its much stronger that I thought it was. It seems that its gonna be much tougher to break it down now...
Well anyways, that aside...I just fell in love with this beautiful song sung by none other than my dear Jason Mraz. Its a cover by the beatles. Its simply beautiful.
I dedicate it to my dear MDIS clans, Yati, Suzzie, Mazzie, Emi, Fizah, Midah, TY, Jassie, Will, Meili and Xiuling. I love you guys to bits. Thank you for accepting me and thank you for the friendship. Without your frenship, support and help I dont think I'll be where I am today. Thank you sooo much. Love you guys and will miss you guys!!
To my dearies Ana Pai, Naha, Ana sotong, Hilly and Eeky, I love you guys so so much. Thank you for being understanding and patient. So much to catch up on! I miss you guys so much.
And of course, my dear family. To mak and ayah for believing in me, always supporting me no matter what and for always praying the best for me. Without you, I'll be nothing. To Abang, kak Irma, Kak wani, Kak yaya and Abang Hafiz, thanks for all the support and encouragement. And to Arina my love, thank you for being so lovely and never failing to light up my life. Love each and everyone of you.
This one's for you guys!!!!
" There are places I'll remember All my life, though some have changed Some forever, not for better Some have gone and some remain All these places had their moments With lovers and friends, I still can recall Some are dead and some are living In my life, I've loved them all "
Entry title: Just a passer-by
Date / Time : Sunday, August 16, 2009 / 1:01 AM
I feel so disconnected from people around me. Ive lost any forms of motivation and any self belief that I had left. I thought I would get over it, this failure and the dissapointment in myself. I thought I would pull it thru and carry on. I thought I was strong. But clearly im wrong. The fear, the nightmares, the dissapointment is still here. Im still feeling defeated. I used to be stronger. I used to be happier. I used to be more involved and in tune. But now, I dont even know myself anymore. Who am i? Who or what have I become? I feel like a stranger even when im with my own groups of friends. Sometimes, I have to put up an act, force a smile just to get by without getting caught.
I feel like im losing grip of everything, my hopes and dreams. I feel like im losing all the ones I love. I feel like im losing myself...
In the name of Allah, the most gracious, the most merciful. Ya Allah, I pray to you to give me the strength and the determination for me to do what is needed of me. Make me a better muslim, make me a better daughter. Help me through this tough phase and show me the spleander and beauty that you have given upon us. Amin.
Entry title: Micheal Jackson
Date / Time : Tuesday, June 30, 2009 / 12:49 PM
May God bless Micheal Jackson and his family. His passing is a great loss and he'll truly be missed. No one has been as influencial as he has been to the music world. I've always been a fan of his musics, his dance moves and his videos. And I've always hated how the media has been treating him and still does. The media only zooms in on his negativity and not on the positive.
All his humanatarian and charities that he has contributed to has been overloooked. Songs like "Earth Song", "Heal the world", "Man in the mirror", "They dont really care about us", "Black or white" and "We are the world" are just some of the songs that reflects what he truly cares about. He became their voices. Listen to the songs and you'll understand.
What I hope for now is that the media and the world to just respect him and allow his family to mourn and grief without any more negativities. May God bless him always. Amin.
Here's a video I took off you tube. A tribute to MJ with one of my many favourite MJ songs.
Entry title: is it really over?
Date / Time : Wednesday, May 27, 2009 / 11:23 PM
Im finally done with what I hope is the last ever paper I sit for. (No sup paper for me please.) Im so drained. For the past 2 months or so, I tried focusing and was my own cheerleader. Wasnt an easy journey. So much temptations and distractions, but it all came down to today. I gave it my best. Squeezed out what ever information I could from what I had downloaded to my overloaded and slow processor brain.
I should be feeling relief but strangely enough, I dont feel anything. Infact im feeling so alone right now. So empty. So lost. Its like I've suddenly lost my sense of direction. Its making me feel so inadequete. Its like what am I suppose to do now? I feel like I just got dumped or something. Haha. But seriously, it just feels so weird right now. Like previously I have my studies to concentrate on, so now what? I mean, technically Im still not done with school yet. I still do have my dissertation to complete by July and I still have to await my results to determine if I do get to graduate by Nov. Arrgghh....I just cant put it down it words to describe exactly how im feeling and what Im going through. (Besides the fact that I feel like im coming down with a flu or something.)
Anywayyss, right after our paper, me and some of the girls headed down to town for a session of karaoke. We let ourselfs loose. And by all means did we sing and scream our hearts out. We sang like no one is hearing and danced like no one is watching. :) It does feel pretty good. Had so much fun reminiscing as we sang songs that we grew up listening to, and some other songs that I dont pretty much know...especially all the dangdut and all the geleks. lols. 3 hours of pure pleasure singing our worries and blues away. And as if that wasnt enuff, as I made a short pit stop at causeway point before heading home, I heard them play a song by a band that I listened to some 10 years ago. It got stuck to my head, so as soon as I reached home, I played the CD and had my own mini karaoke in my room where im pretty sure no one was listening nor seeing. Haha.
I tried looking for the song on you tube to share it here, but sadly enuff they dont have it. But found this on yahoo. Hope it works. The song that was stuck to my head was "Halfway around the world" by A-teens. (10 years later, I still think that Amit is super cute. Teehee.)
Entry title: viva la vida
Date / Time : Thursday, May 14, 2009 / 12:06 AM
So I survived one of the most scariest experience in my life. My viva voce went and go. All I can say is, I did my best. And turns out it isint as scary as I thought it would be. Just had to calm down my much accelerated heart beat. As I was standing outside the examination room, I was soo damn nervous out of my wits, I felt like my heart was beating wayy too fast and too loud. I could practically hear and feel it pounding. Prep talk myself, took deep breaths and prayed to Allah. And by the time I was called in, my heart has calmed down.
15 mins was all I have gain whatever marks I could out of this 20% scoope of my biotechnology module. A 5 mins presentation of a topic of my choice and another 10mins of Q&A of anything from the module. I did my very best, I squeezed out anything and everything I could from my puny brain. I managed to laugh at my stupidness and I managed not to swivel around in my chair. So I pretty much did OK.
So that that's over...I still however have my written paper. The final fight. And right now, im my own cheerleader.
Did a little shopping after the viva with my dear lovelies. And one of the mission was to get myself a new pair of shoes coz the ones that I was wearing was hurting my cramped bunions!!!!
One of the findings during our shop. Most of the things that we eat now are all engineered. Like this 'transgenic' egg. Sad isint it, that nothing is natural anymore \And look at all those sauces. Think of all the spagetthi i can cook!
And this...a "Don't Cat" aka a cat REPELLANT??!! Why would anyone would ever wanna repel them??
A glutton in love with her dunkin donuts and bubble tea. A narcissist with a naive mind. A procrastinator with big dreams. Absolutely adores her precious little princess, Arina
Attaining her BSc(Hons) from University of Bradford and working hard
on her job as a podiatry assistant to support her Shopaholic needs. Thinks that Jason Mraz is such a dream like ice-cream filling.
Did a little shopping after the viva with my dear lovelies. And one of the mission was to get myself a new pair of shoes coz the ones that I was wearing was hurting my cramped bunions!!!! 
One of the findings during our shop. Most of the things that we eat now are all engineered. Like this 'transgenic' egg. Sad isint it, that nothing is natural anymore
\And look at all those sauces. Think of all the spagetthi i can cook! 
And this...a "Don't Cat" aka a cat REPELLANT??!! Why would anyone would ever wanna repel them?? 
